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notturnito i thought to just jot down my writing process as a fun documentation of what i did, my thought processes, and the notable edits i've made along the way. for brevity's sake, i'll just refer to when the light in our hearts call out to each other as the yoriichi ot3 fic from now on (even though, as you may have noticed, there is no explicit ot3 content of sumiyoshi/yoriichi/suyako here, but pls give me this one).
late 2022 happened to me, and i had to take a break from writing because of Major Life Events, which turned into a massive writing burnout where i couldn't write any creative pieces for around 2 years. the idea for this fic was shelved in that same year of 2022 when my friend wrote an essay about demon slayer for her class centered around the theme legacy, and it sparked a thing in my head about the thirteenth form of sun breathing.
i was also massively inspired by those who touch the sun by beecalm, so please do check out their works!!! they have such a lovely catalogue of kny fics but those who touch the sun especially has something special in my soul and heart (just like a part of yoriichi's heart that is stolen by sumiyoshi AUGH PLEASE READ THIS FIC), with the sun breathing is transformed into the dance of the fire god and subsequently passed down generations of the kamado, written with elegant and beautiful poetry-like prose of yoriichi's pov/pining over sumiyoshi. i do want to say that while i am absolutely inspired by those who touch the sun esp in terms of yoriichi's legacy (and ending it with tanjiro), i tried to take a different angle to it with more focus on what happened in chapter 186 + using the kagura in its literal meaning to summon a god.
i only got around to writing this on april 27th 2024, where i was basically trying to push myself to write Something and not just wait for divine inspiration to strike me with creativity. found the idea written somewhere in my notebook, hence, yoriichi ot3 fic was born!
i had to admit that i don't really know how to shape and where to bring this fic. the same feeling came upon me when i was writing my mdzs song lan/xiao xingchen fic On the Heart as well, but i like to think that i am better equipped in plotting this time, instead of just writing the vibes out (although i did just Vibe It Out for more part of this fic than not).
i knew that i wanted to write about several things:
1) sun themes (no kidding);
2) the hinokami kagura as yoriichi's legacy through the kamado family;
3) the kagura itself as a form of invocation to amaterasu-o-mikami and the shinto spirituality surrounding it (hence the inclusion of omamori, yoriichi thinking of himself as a tatarigami [or calamity god], and the reference to takamagahara, etc);
4) yoriichi seeing his dead loved ones in the kamado family whom he'd saved (yoriichi's mom-sumiyoshi, uta-suyako);
5) the parallel of yoriichi's and sumiyoshi's eyes + tears; and most importantly,
6) love, between yoriichi and sumiyoshi, yoriichi and suyako, and yoriichi and sumiyoshi and suyako (delicious, triangle love).
actually, kidding! some of these sprang up later after i finished up some scenes, but once these ideas manifested they would not stop sticking in my head, haha. so i just needed to figure out a way to include all of them and arrange them in a neat manner so that this fic wouldn't sound like the ramblings of a maniac going "LEGACY.... SUMIYOSHI LOVES YORIICHI AND IT'S SEEN IN THE PASSING OF HINOKAMI KAGURA!!!!!!" even though i wanna just write that as a manifesto.
anyway, Planning.
this time, it's one of those disjointed fics where i wrote out of order and have to come back to the skeletal scenes so i can buff them up with more meat. but the core is this: yoriichi is expelled from demon slayer corps (circumstances happened) -> he thinks about the people he cannot save (loss of purpose) -> but he once saved sumiyoshi -> he found relief in sumiyoshi and suyako's existence, as he managed to save their lives (healing/catalyst) -> it gave him more reason to keep slaying demons (regaining purpose). and then, contrast that with sumiyoshi's regret over the things he did not do for yoriichi (inaction) -> sumiyoshi passing down the fire god kagura as a form of prayer for yoriichi (action).
to be honest, i was lost while writing this most of the time. i was in tears. shaking. why do i write, i ask, who gave me the free will to do this voluntarily. it's only now when i come back to it that i realized, wow, i actually managed to cobble some pretty coherent structure, even in sumiyoshi's pov. but skeletons can be cobbled together. how do i pad it up with the meat (writing)?
it's genuinely thanks to evebc they beta-read this fic and gave amazing suggestions about what scenes i could add in (like the details about kamado fam preparing a yukata for yoriichi and the scene about yoriichi sleeping over in the same room as the kamado fam). i really couldn't have written this fic without them holding my hand throughout the entire process.
writing it from yoriichi's pov makes me consider several things:
1) the special way he sees the world with his see-through vision,
2) his lack of self-worth,
3) his seeming detachment from humankind (either from his inability to process his emotions (not crying when his mom passed/freezing only holding uta and his unborn child's bodies when they died/from chapter 186, referring to his dialogue with sumiyoshi "I'm happy to see you all happy. When I see happy humans, I feel happy as well.") as though he is exempt from experiencing the happiness firsthand).
however, i really have grown rusty with my writing, so most of the fic is mostly "telling" instead of "showing". i just realized this when i went back to my old writings trying to figure out what had seemed so odd with the current narration. so i patched up some of yoriichi's pov, and added more physical descriptions related to how he feels emotions through his body rather than comprehending/intellectualizing them, because i thought that might be more natural to him to think of emotions in terms of what they did to the body.
lo, my realizations:
it feels good when you solve a problem in your draft! as you can see, i was not as calm writing this fic as i am currently writing this process down.
finally, i finished the draft on dec 5th 2024! i did a couple edits here and there, especially revamping some stuff on sumiyoshi's pov so that it'll flow better.
but yeah, that's the thought process behind when the light in our hearts call out to each other. thanks to anyone who read this post up 'til this point!!
late 2022 happened to me, and i had to take a break from writing because of Major Life Events, which turned into a massive writing burnout where i couldn't write any creative pieces for around 2 years. the idea for this fic was shelved in that same year of 2022 when my friend wrote an essay about demon slayer for her class centered around the theme legacy, and it sparked a thing in my head about the thirteenth form of sun breathing.
i was also massively inspired by those who touch the sun by beecalm, so please do check out their works!!! they have such a lovely catalogue of kny fics but those who touch the sun especially has something special in my soul and heart (just like a part of yoriichi's heart that is stolen by sumiyoshi AUGH PLEASE READ THIS FIC), with the sun breathing is transformed into the dance of the fire god and subsequently passed down generations of the kamado, written with elegant and beautiful poetry-like prose of yoriichi's pov/pining over sumiyoshi. i do want to say that while i am absolutely inspired by those who touch the sun esp in terms of yoriichi's legacy (and ending it with tanjiro), i tried to take a different angle to it with more focus on what happened in chapter 186 + using the kagura in its literal meaning to summon a god.
i only got around to writing this on april 27th 2024, where i was basically trying to push myself to write Something and not just wait for divine inspiration to strike me with creativity. found the idea written somewhere in my notebook, hence, yoriichi ot3 fic was born!
i had to admit that i don't really know how to shape and where to bring this fic. the same feeling came upon me when i was writing my mdzs song lan/xiao xingchen fic On the Heart as well, but i like to think that i am better equipped in plotting this time, instead of just writing the vibes out (although i did just Vibe It Out for more part of this fic than not).
i knew that i wanted to write about several things:
1) sun themes (no kidding);
2) the hinokami kagura as yoriichi's legacy through the kamado family;
3) the kagura itself as a form of invocation to amaterasu-o-mikami and the shinto spirituality surrounding it (hence the inclusion of omamori, yoriichi thinking of himself as a tatarigami [or calamity god], and the reference to takamagahara, etc);
4) yoriichi seeing his dead loved ones in the kamado family whom he'd saved (yoriichi's mom-sumiyoshi, uta-suyako);
5) the parallel of yoriichi's and sumiyoshi's eyes + tears; and most importantly,
6) love, between yoriichi and sumiyoshi, yoriichi and suyako, and yoriichi and sumiyoshi and suyako (delicious, triangle love).
actually, kidding! some of these sprang up later after i finished up some scenes, but once these ideas manifested they would not stop sticking in my head, haha. so i just needed to figure out a way to include all of them and arrange them in a neat manner so that this fic wouldn't sound like the ramblings of a maniac going "LEGACY.... SUMIYOSHI LOVES YORIICHI AND IT'S SEEN IN THE PASSING OF HINOKAMI KAGURA!!!!!!" even though i wanna just write that as a manifesto.
anyway, Planning.
this time, it's one of those disjointed fics where i wrote out of order and have to come back to the skeletal scenes so i can buff them up with more meat. but the core is this: yoriichi is expelled from demon slayer corps (circumstances happened) -> he thinks about the people he cannot save (loss of purpose) -> but he once saved sumiyoshi -> he found relief in sumiyoshi and suyako's existence, as he managed to save their lives (healing/catalyst) -> it gave him more reason to keep slaying demons (regaining purpose). and then, contrast that with sumiyoshi's regret over the things he did not do for yoriichi (inaction) -> sumiyoshi passing down the fire god kagura as a form of prayer for yoriichi (action).
to be honest, i was lost while writing this most of the time. i was in tears. shaking. why do i write, i ask, who gave me the free will to do this voluntarily. it's only now when i come back to it that i realized, wow, i actually managed to cobble some pretty coherent structure, even in sumiyoshi's pov. but skeletons can be cobbled together. how do i pad it up with the meat (writing)?
it's genuinely thanks to evebc they beta-read this fic and gave amazing suggestions about what scenes i could add in (like the details about kamado fam preparing a yukata for yoriichi and the scene about yoriichi sleeping over in the same room as the kamado fam). i really couldn't have written this fic without them holding my hand throughout the entire process.
writing it from yoriichi's pov makes me consider several things:
1) the special way he sees the world with his see-through vision,
2) his lack of self-worth,
3) his seeming detachment from humankind (either from his inability to process his emotions (not crying when his mom passed/freezing only holding uta and his unborn child's bodies when they died/from chapter 186, referring to his dialogue with sumiyoshi "I'm happy to see you all happy. When I see happy humans, I feel happy as well.") as though he is exempt from experiencing the happiness firsthand).
however, i really have grown rusty with my writing, so most of the fic is mostly "telling" instead of "showing". i just realized this when i went back to my old writings trying to figure out what had seemed so odd with the current narration. so i patched up some of yoriichi's pov, and added more physical descriptions related to how he feels emotions through his body rather than comprehending/intellectualizing them, because i thought that might be more natural to him to think of emotions in terms of what they did to the body.
lo, my realizations:
it feels good when you solve a problem in your draft! as you can see, i was not as calm writing this fic as i am currently writing this process down.
finally, i finished the draft on dec 5th 2024! i did a couple edits here and there, especially revamping some stuff on sumiyoshi's pov so that it'll flow better.
but yeah, that's the thought process behind when the light in our hearts call out to each other. thanks to anyone who read this post up 'til this point!!
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